The peaceful and private Utopia of my own preference

As of late ,with Christmas fast approaching ,I‘ve been asked; What do you wish for?
Of the things that they‘d be able to give me there are simple yet useful things on my list.
Led lights are always good presents for me. I like them ,especially the smaller neat ones.
Computer enhancing stuffs are also high on my list. Digital pens ,hard disks & cards.
Functional clothing and equips better be there or I might fall victim to the black yule kitty.
Then there be crystals and esoteric items of sorts. They‘re pretty ,mysterious & exciting.

I‘d ask my love interest for different items but currently I don‘t have that connection.

Of the things I wish for which my contacts wouldn‘t be likely to be able to grant me are
many of my ideas which I intend to eventually make into reality ,one way or another.

A special castle with tropical plants and robots in it. And plenty of rooms for the girls.
The robots could do the things that would make the castle completely self-sufficient.
Like water the plants at the right times ,treat injuries ,process the trash and so on.
Everything be well thought out. The bathroom be placed under a crystal pyramid
fountain that be on the entrance floor. Some of the walls in the bathroom be flowing
with clean water and there be saunas and a hot tub. Kitchen would also be sort of
like a bar and open up into a longue. A special room for media experiences be found
in the castle and it ,featuring soundproofings ,could make for some awesome shows.
At the top there be a translucent room for growing foods and a sort of a garden inside of.
Guest rooms ,labs and various rooms for storage and maintenance accesses would also
be in the better places and some be connected to the workshops and outer hallways.
The rest of informations about the castle will be left unmentioned at this time.

I also have other things I wish for and this posting wouldn‘t last me to count them all.
For example my dream car which could potentially go most anywhere I‘d ever like.

Anyways I‘ll post more later ,since its gotten late and I wish to get this posting out nows.

Thank you for reading! ^^

Closing in on the final alterations before the last cycle

I discovered a good way for me to make my music in the way I best prefer it now
after having recovered a bit from some monumental shifts of transitions this year.

The blog will now be picking up and will become more active and important as it
progresses with me into the final stages. The new cycle starts 2nd of December.

I will explain later what that means for me ,as it has a very definite meaning.

Right now I‘m seeing great progress with my works. Outside its cold storming.
There is no commitment for me today. That does not mean I wont be friendly ,
or that I intend to give up on them things that I have been working on so far.
What it means is that I‘m just dealing with things as they go with no guarantee.

Robots are coming back into prominence and I‘m studying more into electronics.
Programming ,physics ,maths and chemistry are also high on my list of studies.
These I‘ll have to progress properly in to advance my main perceived goals.

This month has so far indeed been a violently turbulent one in more than one way.

I have made many lists lately. Lists of things I need to take care of ,lists of goals
and lists of things I like. I wish to do things on my own terms most often because
I generally don‘t like unfavorable interferences. But lately there have been many.

The storm is hammering my window and its generally very dark but I‘m content.
Its cozy inside when its like that outside. I‘ve passed the time with puzzles like
Heroes 3 of Might and Magic. The campaigns in it are harder than they look.
I‘ve rested well despite the nonpreferences. Things are getting better for sure.

2012 will be my year. Since the cycle starts in December this year I sort of
look at it as a part of my final year. That‘s right. I‘ll get better into that later.

For now I‘m focusing on fine tuning my preferences and various aspects
thereof ,including how I express myself. My style of writing still displays
some of my eccentricness ,even when typed on a keyboard. But that‘s
just better ,to display the uniqueness of my style. I prefer creating my own
even in writing. Their grammar isn‘t my grammar. Although similar ,its different.
I‘d even make my own alien language but then no one would understand me.
Unless they‘d bother to learn my ways. Its an intricate structure of things.

Technicians are often backstage figures with knowledge of how things operate.

I‘m more semi-inbetween the front and back. I switch in a lot of different things.
What I do or say might not always be understood but it usually brings some
element out which makes thought patterns go into a sort of a dance.

My expressions can often induce some deep thinking or misunderstandings.
I‘m currently working on reducing the misunderstandings to a minimum.

This is one reason why my grammar is so similar to their grammar.
My handwriting has changed a great deal in just a few years time.
I have writings I wrote back in 2003 and compared them with my writings now
and they look very different. My writing now looks much more professional.
Much more orderly. I‘m also studying into Japanese by myself using the net.
Each of those letters have to be written in the right stroke order. Which I do.
I have taken out a book and intend to write each letter out over a whole page
so that I may take in the right stroke order for each one and get better feeling
for each letter. This should help me familiarize myself with them just like I did
with this alphabet. There are also songs for learning with and various programs.

This should also work for me with other languages. Luckily I‘m only interested
in learning two other languages right now. The other‘s I‘m interested in are
similar enough for me to pick up on with what I‘ve already learned very easily.

I‘ve recently written some of my favorite tunes onto audio cd‘s. That way they‘ll
be available for me in remote locations when I‘m travelling with my stereo.

Getting back to the roots is becoming a general theme for me.
I wish to know how things are made and where they come from
instead of just relying on random things I know very little if anything about.

Even the more complex things like computer screens and processor chips.
They‘re amazing and I‘ve realized all the effort that has gone into making them.

Making robots and machines that can make more intricate machines is one way
to accomplish making these things without relying too much on others to do it.

This is one reason why I‘m moving generally more towards the robots now.
I‘ve always been interested in robotics though. I only have  two hands
so why not make more hands which could help me accomplish more?

It makes sense when you think about it.

So I'm back here again.

              

Lately I've had a great difficulty with connections. I feel out of place a lot and misunderstood.
They watch their tv screens ,consuming whatever the markets offer. They don't really care.
They're ignorant like noobs and as arrogant as snobs. With petty and trivial differences ,
which they make a huge deal out of. They don't appreciate the technology like craftsmen do.
They use it simply because its there ,regardless of where it came from. They abhor the truth.
Most of the structures of society are really corrupt and backwards to what they ought to be.
Currently the mainstream is all about the material goods you have and what you can gain.
It should be more about what you're able to make and share for others. That's what matters.
Quality trumps quantity but in this system you have lots of the things which break down ,
instead of just a few things that last and serve you well. Why are bad things profitable?

I'm still fixing and fine tuning myself. It would be nice to meet someone like me.
Someone who fits me better and understands the state of things in the world.
Who is my soulmate? Are there many soulmates? Would I know it if I met my soulmate?
If you're reading this blog in the month I posted it you are most likely by my better friends.
You're one of the few who have stayed here for me in this time of darkened limitation.
I believe 2012 will be a far better year ,at least for me. When things are darker ,be light.
2011 has been more of a transition ,gathering information and making way for new things.
Blueprints are forming ,I've read more and written more regularly than in previous times ,
without being in any official job or study. And yet ,I receive very little attention if any.
I've highlighted many important things for various groups and yet ,they just pass it by.
They look towards the trivial things instead. Some become more like children in a way
with their name calling ,cursing and putting things in the wrong places ,calling it "right".

Looking for a suitable site didn't work. I have to make my own activity for now it seems.
So I'm back here again. Putting this out like a beacon in the dark to light a certain way.
Comments have been rare so far. Either most are baffled by my postings or they just
don't understand. This is my longest posting on here yet. And what is it about?
Its about how the darkness and the cold have extinguished most of the external flames.
They may still be there ,but they've been put out of reach. Conditions and limitations.
Within there are none. But when the posting is projected outwards its has no guarantee.
It may pass un-noticed by sleeping eyes or be regarded as something other than it is.
Conditions might even block it from the vision like a fog or a passing train of ships.

If you don't have time to read this through completely ,just keep the rest for later.
Recently I've gathered some materials that will help me make more things by myself.
I much prefer making my own style. Anything from my clothes ,to artworks and music.
I've also been getting a lot more organized. The more I know how to do ,the better.
The internet also helps me with getting various informations and instructions.

But I'll have to search around more because cooperation is better in many instances..
Next year will most likely be better in that regard. Keep on the lookout.

Things are more tense now than I've ever noticed before. I'm generally a calm one ,
so I tend to notice when situations and conditions appear which be of importance.
And its like something big is on the horizon nows. There be many hints and feelings.
Eventually these things will become clear and the situations and conditions will
change to something very different. Like a big ticking timebomb going off.
I don't know yet what kinda effects it be heralding. It'll be something worldchanging.

This month has been very stormy. Next month looks to be very stormy-like too.
My last operation this year will be in the beginning of November. I'll be fixed up.

I've kept a diary of every day this year. Most of my days this month have had
short entries as little noteworthy has happened. The gradual changes multiply though.
So I've gotten lots of small things done which amount to bigger things in the long run.
I've changed the layout of my current room at least 3 times this year ,haven't quite
fitted into this place ,feel that the proximity isn't resisted by the building's walls.
That's why I've experimented with making some deflectors of sorts out of wires ,
among other things. It may be silly but to an extent it works. Aluminum is great.

This is about as far as this posting goes for now. Make your own activity and then
search for other's activity. Be the light in the dark ,don't rely too much on others.

Alchemy

Lately I've been a bit detached. From December onwards I may go all out.
I'm emerging now from pressures and conditions I haven't yet seen the last of.

So far my postings have mainly been for the purpose of giving insights into my views.
Deep ponderings and mind boggling thought patterns. So lets continue that for a bit.

The essences of the gems are always there. 7 different colors and one master gem.

If the essence of god can be manifested into solid form as the philosophers stone ,
then so can these seven be made like that with the help of nature by god's laws.

Alchemy ,by the correct conditioning of natural occurence ,can manifest spiritual
essences into solid forms with much benefit to both man and nature.

That's the whole purpose of the sacred art.

Noctilucence?

The lights I saw before my last entry may have been a form of noctilucence.
Such things may be caused by reflections off ice crystals or bioluminecent lifeforms.
There are so many similar but different things around which may be confused together..

It doesn't change the fact that each time I saw these things a solar flare had occured
just day or two before which made me think these things were caused by the sun.

Many lights that appear in the sky cannot be properly identified ,
which could potentially be either unknown spacecraft or timecraft..

There's lots of uncertainty around these days ,finding undeniable truth is often difficult.

But there's one truth which always remains and that is ; I am existing here now.

Sunstorms

These past few days the sun has bursted out some larger flares than I've ever seen before.
I looked outside and saw these bright plasma fields in the sky. They didn't move like clouds.

The night sky also showed me some falling stars and other lights I could not easily identify.
For example a strange glow in one of the clouds which seemed to only stay with that cloud.

According to this article I found ,we can expect to see more solar flares in the near future.

Article link - Nasa high alert as more solar storms hurl towards earth

Colors

These are meanings I've gathered for the colors and made sense of ;

Black - Lowest frequency ,not in fact really a color ,more like the number zero.
This (non) color stands for restriction ,limitation ,the unknown and hidden things.

Brown - Very low frequency. It stands for the rough and primitive ,old and weary.
This color is also much like a lower version of the color Red in a sense. Kinda like 0.5

Red - Low frequency. This color represents close things ,private things and grounding.
Agressiveness and activism is surrounding this color. First visible color of the rainbow.

Orange - Medium low frequency. In between Yellow and Red ,the Orange is the extreme.
Its characterized by attention and the subconscious feelings. Like 1.5 on the color scale.

Yellow - Medium frequency. This color stands for communication ,humor and peace.
It also stands for energetic movements and preparedness. It can mean average.

Green - Medium high frequency. Color of growth ,calmness and approval.
Generally positive and is found right in the middle of the scale at a 90 degree angle.

Teal/Cyan - Moderately high frequency. This color stands for teaching and learning.
Its a positive color that can make very good things happen if applied correctly.

Blue - High frequency. It stands for attraction ,expression and the flow between the two.
You can express yourself perfectly when you're aligned with blue. It also attracts more.

Indigo - Higher frequency. This is a very reaching color that can reach great depths.
Its a special color of thoughtfulness and dreamyness. Its kinda inbetween and hard to find.

Purple/Violet - Very high frequency. Its the last visible color of the rainbow. Always is seen
on the inside of the rainbow arch. This color is far reaching. It stands for unique and daring.

Pink - Very very high frequency. It stands for the feminine. Its also a color of openness.
Awareness and playfulness are also linked to this color as is innocence and cuteness.

White - Highest frequency. 100% color. It is often used to represent all or nothing.
It stands for cleanliness and purity and is in fact the source of all other colors.