Its been the whitest of Yuletides this Christmas

Honestly ,this whole month of December has been snowy around where I live
and on the 24th which is like the main event of Christmas in Iceland ,
the whole country is covered with snow ,even the islands off its coast!

The 25th is more like a resting day afterwards ,but we open the presents 24th ,
generally at least. 25th is Christmas day / Yuleday and 26th is 2nd of Yules ,
or Boxing day ,which is a date I kind of like ,as I can attribute fun things to it. :3

In Iceland ,there was a legend of trolls in the mountains who had sons which
went out and did mischief in villages. There were 13 of them and each one
was named after a certain trait unique to each as they preffered different things.

This is the tale of the 13 Santas ,or the so called Yulelads. Their mother ,Grýla ,
be a horrible troll with terrifying looks and bad habits like eating newborn babies.
Their father was the dumbest oaf of a troll and a wandering goof named Leppalúði.

Leppar happens to mean Tatters (as in tattered clothes) and Lúði means a Loser.
The old ugly troll hag Grýla had a cat ,terrifyingly long black figure which would
appear to be able to do most incredible things ,having a craving taste for nudies.

The 13 sons eventually gave up their mischief and started leaving goodies out
for nice people instead. Sneaking around and putting things into windowsills
and empty idle shoes. For meanies they‘d sometimes leave rotten potatoes.

Here are the names of the Yulelads along with some of their unique traits ;

First one ,Stekkjastaur or "Gimpy" as he be dubbed by english speakers ,
be a very long lad. He‘d shake and be clumsy ,often removing fences and poles.

Second one was called Giljagaur ,which means one who hides in gorges.
"Gilly Oaf" he be sometimes called ,as he be very oaf-like as his father.

Third one was tiny! That‘s why he was called Stúfur which means shorty ,
which made him be called names as "Itty Bitty" or in Japanese ,the "Chibi"

Fourth one kept licking spoons and various tools for eating with which had
caught some leftovers that he‘d fancy. That‘s why they call him Þvörusleikir
or "Ladle Licker" as you could most often tell who he was by his lickings.

Fifth one went even further than his brother and licked pots of various kinds ,
which is why we call him Pottasleikir or "Pot Licker". Fancy that <.<

Another one yet who licked was the Sixth one. He‘d lick bowls as the pots
were too deep to his liking and eating tools weren‘t quite enough for him.
That‘s why he be named Askasleikir or "Bowl Licker" because of his bowl fetish.

Next one or the Seventh ,was very loud. He‘d slam doors everywhere he went ,
shatter things ,ring bells and bang into stuffs so he became to be known as
Hurðaskellir ,or the "Door Slammer" He also liked spooking people out.

After him we had someone who found the Icelandic Skyr to be the most delicious
delicacy in the world and as he the Eighth would follow his brothers in lickings ,
he‘d gobble up any and all Skyr he could find. Skyrgámur means Skyr container
but he‘s also known as "Skyr Gobbler" or  "Skyr Glutton".

The Ninth was very fond of sausages which he‘d steal whenever he saw thems.
For this the people dubbed him Bjúgnakrækir or "Sausage Stealer"

The Tenth had a habit of stalking and sneaking up to peek through windows ,
earning him the name Gluggagægir or "Peeper" as he kept peering inside.

The Eleventh had an unusually big nose ,with which he‘d catch the scents
and sniff around for gates or way in. Gáttaþefur they called him or "Sniffer".

Ketkrókur appeared next as the twelfth and stole whatever meats he could.
He‘d be very skilled with hooks which extended far and wide into peoples homes
with which he‘d hook the meats and then run for it like a retard. "Meat Hook".

The last one ,the Thirteenth ,had the bad habit of eating candles which
in those days were made of an edible substance much like bee‘s wax.
He‘d beg for candles and not go away until he be given one he could eat.
That‘s why they called him Kertasníkir , "Candle Eater" or "Candle Beggar"

Last one arriving on the 24th ,they‘d stay a while and then leave ,
as the Yuletide ends on the 6th of January with flares and fireworks.

I just felt like sharing that story so I did ,hope someone enjoyed reading it.

I got a few nice  things for christmas ; pajamas ,a tablet / digital pen ,
some books about knitting ,a crystal pendulum ,an external hard disk drive ,
a lucky award of little monies from a holiday ticket and some more monies.

Myeah ,our Christmas starts at the stroke of 6 pm on the 24th of December.
First we eat ,then we open the presents one by one or however we like ,
depending on who‘s around and what the preferable style is.

At the start of the day it was storming a bit here but then it settled down
and became nice and quiet. At least on the outside. Some ruckus on
the other floors as some be stumbling over their new presents no doubt.

My inner feelings have been coming out a bit more and things are really
looking up for me nows! My time is coming ,just wait and see.

My strange internal struggle of the unexplainable..

I‘ve had some conflicting emotions gradually rising throughout the year of 2011.
The social systems I see have radically different values in contrast to my own ,
people around me don‘t seem to follow the same sort of standards as I do at all.

My mind is more girly and eccentric than I‘ve been showing for most of my life.
Sides of me which have been supressed are coming out slowly ,little by little..

...I see some things I‘d rather not see ,we see more and more during this time
because we have to choose which things we prefer to see in order to make some
changes for the better and if we can‘t see what we know is wrong to us ,
then how could we change it?

I‘m a girl ,but I‘m also a boy. Therein lies most of the struggle.
Most would say that I can‘t be both but what do they know? They‘re all wrong.
If they can't see or wont ,how could they know? I have my ways of seeing things
which would seem utterly bizarre to most I've met ,or those who fit in the system.

The current system has mostly favored the male rulers to be trampling on others
but its slowly changing for the better...I favor rights ,respect ,privacy and mercy..

I‘m more like 2 parts female and 1 part male. The more prevalent outlook
will now start changing more towards the female aspects ,in the year ahead.

In approximately one year I may have brought my feminine side out fully.
Nothing is set in stone...but it‘s my desire to rid myself of the uncomfortable
male aspects like bad odors ,stingy hairs in odd places and various ailments.

I can‘t quite explain it right now why I feel that I‘m 2 parts girl & only 1 part male ,
its simply something I‘ve felt as far back as I can remember.

I‘m comfortably uncomfortable. It sounds really strange but I am! ^^;;

I can also be happy and sad at the same time...I feel that a lot these days.

During my time here I‘ve already changed lots and made lots and lots of progress
toward being more able to live my dreams. And yet I‘m still within this very limited
system of ridiculous rules and laws made up by thems whose values are so
outdated and narrow-minded. We should set up a system in which we don‘t need
laws like that. Just look at the Japanese ,during the disasters they acted orderly
in situations in which most of the western countries would have had riotings..

I aim to become more assertive. At times in the past I‘ve been either too lenient
or in some cases way too harsh and this doesn‘t really suit me.

Anger is a useless emotion in most situations. Fears are defensive mechanisms
and should be used as such. They alert one of potentially hazardous conditions.

The trick is to de-condition. How do we do that? I‘m still learning..

...but someone said that when you de-condition ,you can make things better.

Maybe by assigning your own conditionings?

Or moving through un-needed or unwanted ones?

Much ponderings. I get lonely lots ,despite being in family residenses.
My loneliness is from my lack of intimate contact with lovers whom I‘d like to
cuddle with ,hold hands and go to fun places with among other things.

It didn‘t help much that most of my contacts online have nows gotten married ,
had kids or started living with a random designated lover who isn‘t me.

The system prohibits many lovers or so it would seem. The ones that do are
called names and/or looked down on by most of the people in the system.

I‘d be happy with even just one ,but why stop there? It seems so limited to me
how most things in the system work...alcohol and nicotine kill more than some
of the forbidden drugs it seems ,not that I‘d ever need any of those since I already
gots a naturally occurring substance in my brain ,responsible for dreaming and
near death-experiences aswell as them psychic links to the æther and god.

This substance is actually classified as an illegal drug in lots of places though :o
Its called Di Methyl Tryptamine (DMT) and is used in the pineal gland (Third eye)
You can look it up for yourself and see the truth.

Myes ,I very much believe in god ,as I believe in myself. My perspective of god
may be different from most peoples in a way...but there absolutely is one.

I‘ve studied lots into these things and discoverd lots of remarkable thingies ^o^

Anyways ,back to my strange struggles..
I‘ve gotten myself lots of pretty things ,bought ,traded and found mostly.
Some of them thingies are really girly and remain hidden until I‘m ready to reveal
thems while many of thems I‘ve decorated my room with or wear daily.

They be my trophies ,treasures and delights because of the values I put on thems
by myself. They might not be worth as much to others..
That‘s how a true economy should work!

At times I get strange images in my head of relatives ,people or things I‘ve been
around much which makes me question why it lingers like that.
There have been many non-preferable ones...but..

Its just information and I choose if I wish to act upon it or not and if it‘s unfavorable
then I won‘t need to act upon it should I not wish to.

I‘ve been away most of this month because of games which I‘ve been excited about.
Most my friends play thems and Skyrim is like the game of 2011 so all gamers
know it now me thinks...at least all the gamers who are up to date on things.

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I‘ve also been playing Terraria somewhat. If you‘d like to play Terraria with me ,
drop me a line and I‘ll get into it :3

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Besides these ,I‘ve been playing a certain fishing game lots. Its a fun game.

But that‘s about it for nows..

Thank you for reading~!

And so it begins..

Last night I noticed thick cloudy plume outside ,coming from the floor below.
My first thought was to wonder if the appartment below had caught on fire.
Turns out that a pipe in the geothermal plumming for the heaters had broke.
There was an incident some weeks ago with some small fire causing a ruckus
but this was bigger ,seeing as the appartment below was utterly devastated
by the flaming hot water flowing all over everything and down into the cellar.

This ,like the fire incident ,triggered in me a greater readiness to prepare
proper precautions for myself since there be lots of things which might go
wrong or otherwise cause me to have to get out quickly and maybe leave
the room behind for good. I‘m putting things into the right places more.

Today is the start of the last lineary perceived cycle of influences that is
bigger than a year but there are many smaller ones within as we approach
the turning point in 2012. With ever more going on and connectivity increasing.

I look at it as the last year of my life. I‘ve decided to change in such a way
that I will likely be completely different but better after the year of 2012.
When it has passed I may hold a form of a ceremony and be reborn.

I will very much live my life to its fullest in 2012. With much more activity than
in any of my previous years. This will be a joyous time of many celebrations.
Learning new things ,making new friends ,expanding the horizons.

What would you do differently if you knew you only had one year left to live?
Its very empowering to figure out what you value most and how you go about
doing and getting the things you‘d prefer to experience with a steadfast will.

You can let all your dreams come true if you believe you can do it.

The Ghost Lines

I‘ve been away while the internet connections went down ,studying and reorganizing.
Becoming more mobile is key. If you hunker down during the transformational shift ,
it will be much harder to adapt to the coming changes that will strike the world.

As a result of my downtime and things I've rubbed the wrong way without knowing ,
connections and contacts have been reduced for me significantly as of late.
There's also the businesses and sicknesses of some contacts..

It may very well be that most of these contacts I used to be so active with all the time
weren‘t actually of my preferred frequency and that‘s why I have these ghost lines.
I often remember what certain individuals were like and then write to myself as they did
and  that‘s what I call ghosting. They are ghost contacts that are with me in a way.

This is not the most bizzare thing I‘ve been up to. Sometimes I just sit and think.
For hours on end. I‘ve also been doing my best to read into my dreams ,scrying thems.

I had a dream in which I was playing a racing game. First time around I made 3rd place.
Then I made the second place. Finally ,when the reward was the greatest ,I won it.
The racing game was like that of the computer game Wipeout. Hovering superspeeders.

The reorganizing is going well. I‘ve also printed out some mandalas for better balancing
in my surroundings and I‘m sure they‘ve helped me lots. But I would like a better room.
I‘ve printed out more of my fav piccies aswell. Refined my looks a bit. Put things in bags.
There‘s one for my studies ,two for my experiments ,one for survivalist things and then
I also keep lots of things in belts ,straps and pockets. I wish to be able to pick up and go.
Like ,in an instant. The heavy stuffs I‘d leave behind. External hard drives and laptop
along with other electronics would go into anti static bags and into my other baggage.

I'm almost there.

There will be more time to explain better later.

Thank you for reading.

The peaceful and private Utopia of my own preference

As of late ,with Christmas fast approaching ,I‘ve been asked; What do you wish for?
Of the things that they‘d be able to give me there are simple yet useful things on my list.
Led lights are always good presents for me. I like them ,especially the smaller neat ones.
Computer enhancing stuffs are also high on my list. Digital pens ,hard disks & cards.
Functional clothing and equips better be there or I might fall victim to the black yule kitty.
Then there be crystals and esoteric items of sorts. They‘re pretty ,mysterious & exciting.

I‘d ask my love interest for different items but currently I don‘t have that connection.

Of the things I wish for which my contacts wouldn‘t be likely to be able to grant me are
many of my ideas which I intend to eventually make into reality ,one way or another.

A special castle with tropical plants and robots in it. And plenty of rooms for the girls.
The robots could do the things that would make the castle completely self-sufficient.
Like water the plants at the right times ,treat injuries ,process the trash and so on.
Everything be well thought out. The bathroom be placed under a crystal pyramid
fountain that be on the entrance floor. Some of the walls in the bathroom be flowing
with clean water and there be saunas and a hot tub. Kitchen would also be sort of
like a bar and open up into a longue. A special room for media experiences be found
in the castle and it ,featuring soundproofings ,could make for some awesome shows.
At the top there be a translucent room for growing foods and a sort of a garden inside of.
Guest rooms ,labs and various rooms for storage and maintenance accesses would also
be in the better places and some be connected to the workshops and outer hallways.
The rest of informations about the castle will be left unmentioned at this time.

I also have other things I wish for and this posting wouldn‘t last me to count them all.
For example my dream car which could potentially go most anywhere I‘d ever like.

Anyways I‘ll post more later ,since its gotten late and I wish to get this posting out nows.

Thank you for reading! ^^

Closing in on the final alterations before the last cycle

I discovered a good way for me to make my music in the way I best prefer it now
after having recovered a bit from some monumental shifts of transitions this year.

The blog will now be picking up and will become more active and important as it
progresses with me into the final stages. The new cycle starts 2nd of December.

I will explain later what that means for me ,as it has a very definite meaning.

Right now I‘m seeing great progress with my works. Outside its cold storming.
There is no commitment for me today. That does not mean I wont be friendly ,
or that I intend to give up on them things that I have been working on so far.
What it means is that I‘m just dealing with things as they go with no guarantee.

Robots are coming back into prominence and I‘m studying more into electronics.
Programming ,physics ,maths and chemistry are also high on my list of studies.
These I‘ll have to progress properly in to advance my main perceived goals.

This month has so far indeed been a violently turbulent one in more than one way.

I have made many lists lately. Lists of things I need to take care of ,lists of goals
and lists of things I like. I wish to do things on my own terms most often because
I generally don‘t like unfavorable interferences. But lately there have been many.

The storm is hammering my window and its generally very dark but I‘m content.
Its cozy inside when its like that outside. I‘ve passed the time with puzzles like
Heroes 3 of Might and Magic. The campaigns in it are harder than they look.
I‘ve rested well despite the nonpreferences. Things are getting better for sure.

2012 will be my year. Since the cycle starts in December this year I sort of
look at it as a part of my final year. That‘s right. I‘ll get better into that later.

For now I‘m focusing on fine tuning my preferences and various aspects
thereof ,including how I express myself. My style of writing still displays
some of my eccentricness ,even when typed on a keyboard. But that‘s
just better ,to display the uniqueness of my style. I prefer creating my own
even in writing. Their grammar isn‘t my grammar. Although similar ,its different.
I‘d even make my own alien language but then no one would understand me.
Unless they‘d bother to learn my ways. Its an intricate structure of things.

Technicians are often backstage figures with knowledge of how things operate.

I‘m more semi-inbetween the front and back. I switch in a lot of different things.
What I do or say might not always be understood but it usually brings some
element out which makes thought patterns go into a sort of a dance.

My expressions can often induce some deep thinking or misunderstandings.
I‘m currently working on reducing the misunderstandings to a minimum.

This is one reason why my grammar is so similar to their grammar.
My handwriting has changed a great deal in just a few years time.
I have writings I wrote back in 2003 and compared them with my writings now
and they look very different. My writing now looks much more professional.
Much more orderly. I‘m also studying into Japanese by myself using the net.
Each of those letters have to be written in the right stroke order. Which I do.
I have taken out a book and intend to write each letter out over a whole page
so that I may take in the right stroke order for each one and get better feeling
for each letter. This should help me familiarize myself with them just like I did
with this alphabet. There are also songs for learning with and various programs.

This should also work for me with other languages. Luckily I‘m only interested
in learning two other languages right now. The other‘s I‘m interested in are
similar enough for me to pick up on with what I‘ve already learned very easily.

I‘ve recently written some of my favorite tunes onto audio cd‘s. That way they‘ll
be available for me in remote locations when I‘m travelling with my stereo.

Getting back to the roots is becoming a general theme for me.
I wish to know how things are made and where they come from
instead of just relying on random things I know very little if anything about.

Even the more complex things like computer screens and processor chips.
They‘re amazing and I‘ve realized all the effort that has gone into making them.

Making robots and machines that can make more intricate machines is one way
to accomplish making these things without relying too much on others to do it.

This is one reason why I‘m moving generally more towards the robots now.
I‘ve always been interested in robotics though. I only have  two hands
so why not make more hands which could help me accomplish more?

It makes sense when you think about it.

So I'm back here again.

              

Lately I've had a great difficulty with connections. I feel out of place a lot and misunderstood.
They watch their tv screens ,consuming whatever the markets offer. They don't really care.
They're ignorant like noobs and as arrogant as snobs. With petty and trivial differences ,
which they make a huge deal out of. They don't appreciate the technology like craftsmen do.
They use it simply because its there ,regardless of where it came from. They abhor the truth.
Most of the structures of society are really corrupt and backwards to what they ought to be.
Currently the mainstream is all about the material goods you have and what you can gain.
It should be more about what you're able to make and share for others. That's what matters.
Quality trumps quantity but in this system you have lots of the things which break down ,
instead of just a few things that last and serve you well. Why are bad things profitable?

I'm still fixing and fine tuning myself. It would be nice to meet someone like me.
Someone who fits me better and understands the state of things in the world.
Who is my soulmate? Are there many soulmates? Would I know it if I met my soulmate?
If you're reading this blog in the month I posted it you are most likely by my better friends.
You're one of the few who have stayed here for me in this time of darkened limitation.
I believe 2012 will be a far better year ,at least for me. When things are darker ,be light.
2011 has been more of a transition ,gathering information and making way for new things.
Blueprints are forming ,I've read more and written more regularly than in previous times ,
without being in any official job or study. And yet ,I receive very little attention if any.
I've highlighted many important things for various groups and yet ,they just pass it by.
They look towards the trivial things instead. Some become more like children in a way
with their name calling ,cursing and putting things in the wrong places ,calling it "right".

Looking for a suitable site didn't work. I have to make my own activity for now it seems.
So I'm back here again. Putting this out like a beacon in the dark to light a certain way.
Comments have been rare so far. Either most are baffled by my postings or they just
don't understand. This is my longest posting on here yet. And what is it about?
Its about how the darkness and the cold have extinguished most of the external flames.
They may still be there ,but they've been put out of reach. Conditions and limitations.
Within there are none. But when the posting is projected outwards its has no guarantee.
It may pass un-noticed by sleeping eyes or be regarded as something other than it is.
Conditions might even block it from the vision like a fog or a passing train of ships.

If you don't have time to read this through completely ,just keep the rest for later.
Recently I've gathered some materials that will help me make more things by myself.
I much prefer making my own style. Anything from my clothes ,to artworks and music.
I've also been getting a lot more organized. The more I know how to do ,the better.
The internet also helps me with getting various informations and instructions.

But I'll have to search around more because cooperation is better in many instances..
Next year will most likely be better in that regard. Keep on the lookout.

Things are more tense now than I've ever noticed before. I'm generally a calm one ,
so I tend to notice when situations and conditions appear which be of importance.
And its like something big is on the horizon nows. There be many hints and feelings.
Eventually these things will become clear and the situations and conditions will
change to something very different. Like a big ticking timebomb going off.
I don't know yet what kinda effects it be heralding. It'll be something worldchanging.

This month has been very stormy. Next month looks to be very stormy-like too.
My last operation this year will be in the beginning of November. I'll be fixed up.

I've kept a diary of every day this year. Most of my days this month have had
short entries as little noteworthy has happened. The gradual changes multiply though.
So I've gotten lots of small things done which amount to bigger things in the long run.
I've changed the layout of my current room at least 3 times this year ,haven't quite
fitted into this place ,feel that the proximity isn't resisted by the building's walls.
That's why I've experimented with making some deflectors of sorts out of wires ,
among other things. It may be silly but to an extent it works. Aluminum is great.

This is about as far as this posting goes for now. Make your own activity and then
search for other's activity. Be the light in the dark ,don't rely too much on others.